"Is there anything else you wish for，Jane? I assure you，I desire to be your friend."

"Not you. You told Mr. Brocklehurst I had a bad character，a deceitful disposition; and I"ll let everybody at Lowood know what

you are，and what you have done."

"Jane，you don"t understand these things: children must be corrected for their faults."

"Deceit is not my fault!" I cried out in a savage，high voice.

"But you are passionate，Jane，that you must allow: and now return to the nursery- there"s a dear- and lie down a little."

"I am not your dear; I cannot lie down: send me to school soon，Mrs. Reed，for I hate to live here."

"I will indeed send her to school soon," murmured Mrs. Reed sotto voce; and gathering up her work，she abruptly quitted the apartment.

I was left there alone- winner of the field. It was the hardest battle I had fought，and the first victory I had gained: I stood awhile on the rug，where Mr. Brocklehurst had stood，and I enjoyed my conqueror"s solitude. First，I smiled to myself and felt elate; but this fierce pleasure subsided in me as fast as did the accelerated throb of my pulses. A child cannot quarrel with its elders，as I had done; cannot give its furious feelings uncontrolled play，as I had given mine，without experiencing afterwards the pang of remorse and the chill of reaction. A ridge of lighted heath，alive，glancing，devouring，would have been a meet emblem of my mind when I accused and menaced Mrs. Reed: the same ridge，black and blasted after the flames are dead，would have represented as meetly my subsequent condition，when half an hour"s silence and reflection had shown me the madness of my conduct，and the dreariness of my hated and hating position.

Something of vengeance I had tasted for the first time; as aromatic wine it seemed，on swallowing，warm and racy: its after-flavour，metallic and corroding，gave me a sensation as if I had been poisoned.