"Your own way- with the husband you have chosen."

"Who is that?"

"You know- this St. John Rivers."

"He is not my husband，nor ever will be. He does not love me: I do not love him. He loves (as he can love，and that is not as you love) a beautiful young lady called Rosamond. He wanted to marry me only because he thought I should make a suitable missionary"s wife，which she would not have done. He is good and great，but severe; and，for me，cold as an iceberg. He is not like you，sir: I am not happy at his side，nor near him，nor with him. He has no indulgence for me- no fondness. He sees nothing attractive in me; not even youth- only a few useful mental points- Then I must leave you，sir，to go to him?"

I shuddered involuntarily，and clung instinctively closer to my blind but beloved master. He smiled.

"What，Jane! Is this true? Is such really the state of matters between you and Rivers?"

"Absolutely，sir! Oh，you need not be jealous! I wanted to tease you a little to make you less sad: I thought anger would be better than grief. But if you wish me to love you，could you but see how much I do love you，you would be proud and content. All my heart is yours，sir: it belongs to you; and with you it would remain，were fate to exile the rest of me from your presence for ever."

Again，as he kissed me，painful thoughts darkened his aspect.

"My seared vision! My crippled strength!" he murmured regretfully.

I caressed，in order to soothe him. I knew of what he was thinking，and wanted to speak for him，but dared not. As he turned aside his face a minute，I saw a tear slide from under the sealed eyelid，and trickle down the manly cheek. My heart swelled.

"I am no better than the old lightning-struck chestnut-tree in Thornfield orchard," he remarked ere long. "And what right would that ruin have to bid a budding woodbine cover its decay with freshness?"