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"I do,sir- I do,with my whole heart."

"Well," he said,after some minutes" silence,"it is strange; but that sentence has penetrated my breast painfully. Why? I think because you said it with such an earnest,religious energy,and because your upward gaze at me now is the very sublime of faith,truth,and devotion: it is too much as if some spirit were near me. Look wicked,Jane: as you know well how to look: coin one of your wild,shy,provoking smiles,tell me you hate me- tease me,vex me; do anything but move me: I would rather be incensed than saddened."

"I will tease you and vex you to your heart"s content,when I have finished my tale: but hear me to the end."

"I thought,Jane,you had told me all. I thought I had found the source of your melancholy in a dream."

I shook my head. "What! is there more? But I will not believe it to be anything important. I warn you of incredulity beforehand. Go on."

The disquietude of his air,the somewhat apprehensive impatience of his manner,surprised me: but I proceeded.

"I dreamt another dream,sir: that Thornfield Hall was a dreary ruin,the retreat of bats and owls. I thought that of all the stately front nothing remained but a shell-like wall,very high and very fragile-looking. I wandered,on a moonlight night,through the grass-grown enclosure within: here I stumbled over a marble hearth,and there over a fallen fragment of cornice. Wrapped up in a shawl,I still carried the unknown little child: I might not lay it down anywhere,however tired were my arms- however much its weight impeded my progress,I must retain it. I heard the gallop of a horse at a distance on the road; I was sure it was you; and you were departing for many years and for a distant country. I climbed the thin wall with frantic perilous haste,eager to catch one glimpse of you from the top: the stones rolled from under my feet,the ivy branches I grasped gave way,the child clung round my neck in terror,and almost strangled me; at last I gained the summit. I saw you like a speck on a white track,lessening every moment. The blast blew so strong I could not stand. I sat down on the narrow ledge; I hushed the scared infant in my lap: you turned an angle of the road: I bent forward to take a last look; the wall crumbled; I was shaken; the child rolled from my knee,I lost my balance,fell,and woke."

"Now,Jane,that is all."