She was getting much excited. "I think I had better leave her now," said I to Bessie,who stood on the other side of the bed.
"perhaps you had,Miss: but she often talks in this way towards night- in the morning she is calmer."
I rose. "Stop!" exclaimed Mrs. Reed,"there is another thing I wished to say. He threatens me- he continually threatens me with his own death,or mine: and I dream sometimes that I see him laid out with a great wound in his throat,or with a swollen and blackened face. I am e to a strange pass: I have heavy troubles. What is to be done? How is the money to be had?"
Bessie now endeavoured to persuade her to take a sedative draught: she succeeded with difficulty. Soon after,Mrs. Reed grew more posed,and sank into a dozing state. I then left her.
More than ten days elapsed before I had again any conversation with her. She continued either delirious or lethargic; and the doctor forbade everything which could painfully excite her. Meantime,I got on as well as I could with Georgiana and Eliza. They were very cold,indeed,at first. Eliza would sit half the day sewing,reading,or writing,and scarcely utter a word either to me or her sister.
Georgiana would chatter nonsense to her canary bird by the hour,and take no notice of me. But I was determined not to seem at a loss for occupation or amusement: I had brought my drawing materials with me,and they served me for both.
provided with a case of pencils,and some sheets of paper,I used to take a seat apart from them,near the window,and busy myself in sketching fancy vignettes,representing any scene that happened momentarily to shape itself in the ever-shifting kaleidoscope of imagination: a glimpse of sea between two rocks; the rising moon,and a ship crossing its disk; a group of reeds and water-flags,and a naiad"s head,crowned with lotus-flowers,rising out of them; an elf sitting in a hedge-sparrow"s nest,under a wreath of hawthorn-bloom.
One morning I fell to sketching a face: what sort of a face it was to be,I did not care or know. I took a soft black pencil,gave it a broad point,and worked away. Soon I had traced on the paper a broad and prominent forehead and a square lower outline of visage: that contour gave me pleasure; my fingers proceeded actively to fill it with features. Strongly-marked horizontal eyebrows must be traced under that brow; then followed,naturally,a well-defined nose,with a straight ridge and full nostrils; then a flexible-looking mouth,by no means narrow; then a firm chin,with a decided cleft down the middle of it: of course,some black whiskers were wanted,and some jetty hair,tufted on the temples,and waved above the forehead. Now for the eyes: I had left them to the last,because they required the most careful working. I drew them large; I shaped them well: the eyelashes I traced long and sombre; the irids lustrous and large.