"Why not?" I asked myself. "What alienates him from the house? Will he leave it again soon? Mrs. Fairfax said he seldom stayed here longer than a fortnight at a time; and he has now been resident eight weeks. If he does go,the change will be doleful. Suppose he should be absent spring,summer,and autumn: how joyless sunshine and fine days will seem!"
I hardly know whether I had slept or not after this musing; at any rate,I started wide awake on hearing a vague murmur,peculiar and lugubrious,which sounded,I thought,just above me. I wished I had kept my candle burning: the night was drearily dark; my spirits were depressed. I rose and sat up in bed,listening. The sound was hushed.
I tried again to sleep; but my heart beat anxiously: my inward tranquillity was broken. The clock,far down in the hall,struck two. Just then it seemed my chamber-door was touched; as if fingers had swept the panels in groping a way along the dark gallery outside. I said,"Who is there?" Nothing answered. I was chilled with fear.
All at once I remembered that it might be pilot,who,when the kitchen-door chanced to be left open,not unfrequently found his way up to the threshold of Mr. Rochester"s chamber: I had seen him lying there myself in the mornings. The idea calmed me somewhat: I lay down.
Silence poses the nerves; and as an unbroken hush now reigned again through the whole house,I began to feel the return of slumber. But it was not fated that I should sleep that night. A dream had scarcely approached my ear,when it fled affrighted,scared by a marrow-freezing incident enough.
This was a demoniac laugh- low,suppressed,and deep- uttered,as it seemed,at the very keyhole of my chamber door. The head of my bed was near the door,and I thought at first the goblin-laugher stood at my bedside- or rather,crouched by my pillow: but I rose,looked round,and could see nothing; while,as I still gazed,the unnatural sound was reiterated: and I knew it came from behind the panels. My first impulse was to rise and fasten the bolt; my next,again to cry out,"Who is there?"