"You have saved my life: I have a pleasure in owing you so immense a debt. I cannot say more. Nothing else that has being would have been tolerable to me in the character of creditor for such an obligation: but you: it is different;- I feel your benefits no burden,Jane."
He paused; gazed at me: words almost visible trembled on his lips,- but his voice was checked.
"Good-night again,sir. There is no debt,benefit,burden,obligation,in the case."
"I knew," he continued,you would do me good in some way,at some time;- I saw it in your eyes when I first beheld you: their expression and smile did not"- (again he stopped)- "did not" (he proceeded hastily) "strike delight to my very inmost heart so for nothing.
people talk of natural sympathies; I have heard of good genii: there are grains of truth in the wildest fable. My cherished preserver,good-night!"
Strange energy was in his voice,strange fire in his look. "I am glad I happened to be awake," I said: and then I was going.
"What! you will go?"
"I am cold,sir."
"Cold? Yes,- and standing in a pool! Go,then,Jane; go!" But he still retained my hand,and I could not free it. I bethought myself of an expedient.
"I think I hear Mrs. Fairfax move,sir," said I.
"Well,leave me": he relaxed his fingers,and I was gone.
I regained my couch,but never thought of sleep. Till morning dawned I was tossed on a buoyant but unquiet sea,where billows of trouble rolled under surges of joy. I thought sometimes I saw beyond its wild waters a shore,sweet as the hills of Beulah; and now and then a freshening gale,wakened by hope,bore my spirit triumphantly towards the bourne: but I could not reach it,even in fancy- a counteracting breeze blew off land,and continually drove me back.
Sense would resist delirium: judgment would warn passion. Too feverish to rest,I rose as soon as day dawned.