In what land? Under what auspices? My eye involuntarily wandered to the grey church tower near the gates,and I asked,"Is he with Damer de Rochester,sharing the shelter of his narrow marble house?"
Some answer must be had to these questions. I could find it nowhere but at the inn,and thither,ere long,I returned. The host himself brought my breakfast into the parlour. I requested him to shut the door and sit down: I had some questions to ask him. But when he plied,I scarcely knew how to begin; such horror had I of the possible answers. And yet the spectacle of desolation I had just left prepared me in a measure for a tale of misery. The host was a respectable-looking,middle-aged man.
"You know Thornfield Hall,of course?" I managed to say at last.
"Yes,ma"am; I lived there once."
"Did you?" Not in my time,I thought: you are a stranger to me.
"I was the late Mr. Rochester"s butler," he added.
The late! I seem to have received,with full force,the blow I had been trying to evade.
"The late!" I gasped. "Is he dead?"
"I mean the present gentleman,Mr. Edward"s father," he explained. I breathed again: my blood resumed its flow. Fully assured by these words that Mr. Edward- my Mr. Rochester (God bless him,wherever he was!)- was at least alive: was,in short,"the present gentleman." Gladdening words! It seemed I could hear all that was to e- whatever the disclosures might be- with parative tranquillity. Since he was not in the grave,I could bear,I thought,to learn that he was at the Antipodes.
"Is Mr. Rochester living at Thornfield Hall now?" I asked,knowing,of course,what the answer would be,but yet desirous of deferring the direct question as to where he really was.